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At a Golden Dawn retreat years ago, the students gathered to try on god forms, and everyone felt a presence except one person. That person, Lyam Christopher, later realized the failure was a clue of its own. Feeling was not the point; the real secret of invocation was already beginning to surface. To invoke, he would need to disappear.
The spoiler is given quietly: you cannot really invoke Osiris, he says, and that is the key. Invocation is not a deliberate act of forcing a god into yourself. It is stepping out of the small constructed self and sinking into the Osiris current, a pattern older than the pictures that carry it. He points to the Egyptian name for the ancient texts, the Book of Coming Forth by Day, and to a Golden Dawn phrase, light in extension, the power to incarnate by choice rather than habit.
Then the teaching turns practical and gentle. Most of us believe we really are the needy skin-bag with endless cravings, but that identity is a nervous-system habit, not the whole truth. Once it is seen through, the old pressures can loosen and a person may choose to step back into a life, alight and present, rather than be dragged into one. This is the discipline mapped in Kabbalah, Magic & the Great Work of Self Transformation, and the promise is not harsh straining but simple, regular seeing.
Full Video Transcript
I remember being at a retreat at the Golden Dawn Temple, Raharakti, and we were trying on
god forms. So supposedly one of the adepts created a god form, and then all of the students were able
to sit inside the god form to see whether they could feel anything. And I recall that every
student there said they felt something, except for me. I didn’t feel anything. And later on during
the retreat, I remember something about people saying that, well, you shouldn’t do ritual right
after you eat because it messes up your ability to be psychically sensitive. And then I made the
comment like, well, yeah, but you can use your bodily sensations to triangulate in on the inner
world. And I seem to recall that somebody just kind of smiled and nodded and apparently didn’t
really know what I was talking about. I thought that was interesting too. Later on, I realized
that even though I couldn’t feel anything in regard to the God forms at the time, I was already
onto something really big in regard to how to invoke Osiris, let’s say, right? And that’s the
key to all kinds of invocation. So last week, I talked about the Osiris or the Osiris current.
and from my perspective the only way to really know how to invoke is to be able to disappear
into the osiris current okay so i guess i’m going to explain that a little bit and so this is a
video about how to invoke osiris kind of the secret spoiler alert is that you can’t really
invoke Osiris, okay? But invocation is not really a matter of you doing something deliberately.
I know that sounds strange, okay? But we’ll get to that. And so my comment was, well, you can
already triangulate in on that inner world. What did I mean by that, right? And at that time,
I was already in touch with the, I guess, the unmanifest world. And much of my practice was
really about tuning into this sort of null zone or this space of no-thing-ness. And everything
about ritual and everything about my spiritual practice was about gathering everything around
this null space okay um not so difficult a thing to understand if you look at the neophyte temple
there is a dais in the east where the um the highest officers sit including the hierophant
okay the hierophant is like the the coolest most important um officer in the neophyte initiation
ceremony of the outer order of the golden dawn it has to be somebody who has a significant power
as an adept who’s able to do it who’s able to sit in that seat of the hierophant which is directly
in the east the center of the dais in the east and that is the station of osiris so the hierophant
needs to be capable of invoking osiris even though i just said you really can’t invoke osiris that’s
because invocation is not something you can do necessarily deliberately okay so i’m i think i’m
I’m going to talk about eventually what I mean by that. And you can kind of enter into Osiris’s
world by triangulating in on that world. And you can triangulate in on that world
by looking at everything in the outer world in terms of via negativa. We’ll talk about that in
a bit too. Okay, so one of the most important things about the Egyptian religions, it’s very
hard to understand much of the egyptian stuff nowadays because many of the you have to know
about some of the stuff that was going on with their agriculture and with their climate doesn’t
take a lot to learn it though but you know a lot of the things in the ancient egyptian book of the
dead they’re not immediately apparent what what’s being referred to okay but with a little bit of
study, you can begin to understand what the various spells and incantations and words of
power are actually attempting to do. Mainly, the Egyptian Book of the Dead, that’s a modern name
given to it because mainly it was a collection of writings that were funeral texts. They were
on the walls of tombs, and also, I believe, inside the lids of coffins, as though the mummy inside
would be able to read instructions for how to successfully enter the afterlife, okay? Not only
enter the afterlife, but then be able to come forth by day, because the actual name of the
Book of the Dead, or that body of literature, at least, was the Book of Coming Forth by Day,
okay i guess that was one of the names for it and which is a very different name than the book of
the dead uh but basically it was about um it was instructions about how to die and do very past
various tests in the underworld so that you can come back okay back into the world of the living
to enjoy what’s going on and then back into back into the tomb again and then back out again
and this kind of uh it very is very similar to the idea of reincarnation if you think about it
but i would think that many of the egyptians thought that your spirit would be able to go
in and out of the tomb back and forth okay um i suspect that maybe some of the deeper initiates
saw it as a reference to reincarnation okay and uh if you’ve been watching my channel and other
videos there is a secret teaching about reincarnation okay which basically says that
it’s not something that happens after you literally die it’s happening all the time
moment to moment to moment and so the instructions for dying and then coming forth by day
they don’t just apply to you literally dying and then having to come back in a different form or
as a ghost or whatever that is right they actually refer to what’s happening right now
they are instructions for how to die and come back even while you are this body is still alive
okay so and you you might gather now since osiris is the dying and resurrected god the way to truly
invoke him is to sort of not draw him out but to descend into the underworld in other words to
disappear into the underworld into his world into his state of being okay so can you really invoke
that no you kind of disappear into it all right and so we can talk about how that happens okay so
when you look at the neophyte temple this is not really the neophyte temple this is an ai generated
something or other but um there is a the hierophant sits on the dais in the east along
with several other high-ranking officers who don’t do very much. The Hierophant does quite a
lot, though. He’s a superstar. And everybody who sits on the dais is pretty much off of the temple
floor. They’re not on the temple floor. And on the temple floor, you have the other officers like
the Strelistis and the Dahos and the Sentinel and the Hegemon and the Karaks, as well as the
candidate who’s being initiated, because the temple floor represents the manifest world.
You could say even the material world, okay? And the world upon the dais is the unmanifest world.
These things are not visible. That’s the realm of the invisible. And so when the hierophant is
sitting on the throne on the dais in the east, he is wearing the god form of Osiris. And in order
to get there he has to sort of die into it disappear into it and just be a sort of passive
dead witness to what’s happening okay there is a tremendous light that is potentially ready to rise
in that station it is the station of the east where the sun rises um but it is slumbering when
it is in the form of Osiris slain, or Osiris mummified in the East. And the Hierophant does
literally visualize himself as a mummy seated upon the throne in the East. Now, there are some
dramatic moments, several of them, in the neophyte ceremony where the Hierophant gets up and moves
onto the temple floor. When he does that, he leaves the god form of Osiris on the throne
and he assumes the form of Aurorus, which is one of the forms of Osiris’s son, Horus,
which signifies that when the Hierophant enters the temple floor, he is now incarnating.
So he is coming forth by day. He was dwelling in the land of night, the underworld,
in obscurity in passivity right and then when he becomes active he comes forth by day into the
light of day right and he comes forth as the brilliant um sun god horus okay horus the avenger
uh horus the victorious uh as auroras he’s horus the elder who is already accomplished and who has
vanquished the powers of evil um the whole so when when the hierophant gets up off of the throne
he’s supposedly demonstrating the power of incarnation okay and so when he goes back to
sit on the throne he dies into the form of Osiris and then of course he can get up again and come
back on the temple floor and this is reincarnation basically disincarnation and then reincarnation
every time he supposedly does that and the symbolism of him doing that is is pretty profound
within the temple because you know mostly everybody who’s moving around is moving in a
circular fashion because everything the universe is swirling around in constant motion and um the
hierophant is the one who who can who moves pretty much straight from the east to the center of the
temple cuts through all the crap cuts through all that motion it’s that beam of light illuminating
the whole process, enlivening the whole process, okay? So he supposedly in that role is demonstrating
the power of coming forth by day, okay? So there’s something very important in the whole myth of
Osiris and his dying and being dismembered, being reassembled, and then impregnating Isis
from the underworld. It’s like the phallic power of Osiris is magically extended forth into the
world of the living to impregnate Isis, which then produces Horus, which is now a vehicle
extension of Osiris in this world. He is now coming forth by day. Okay. And so this is basically what
happens in meditation. I’ve heard it described this way by the mystic Eckhart Tolle. He at first
gets you to visualize or imagine or sense what’s going on in your body, the tingling sensation in
your fingers, the sensation on your skin, the wafting of the air from the air conditioner
through your hair, things like that. And all of these sensations are things. The mind conceptualizes
them and says, oh, my skin is tingling. Oh, I can feel my feet. Oh, I can see the light coming
from across the street through the window you know um and all of these um sensory impressions
are things that are are none of them are of the underworld they’re they’re all manifest and
when the mind catches itself in the act of constellating these things of seeing this
sensation and this sensation and this sensation what it can then do is then disappear between
them and among them, betwixt and between, okay? And so let’s say, just imagine yourself in the
neophyte temple, and then you approach the east, the hierophant’s throne is empty, and invisibly
sitting in that throne is Osiris, of course. And so you’re going to turn around and back into that
throne and sit in the form of Osiris. And so as you do that, you turn around and then you start
backing into the east this is the place of the rising sun okay um you notice the things out there
on the temple floor which are all the sensations and impressions of the physical world things you
can see things you can smell things you can feel on your skin these are all things that the mind
makes concepts out of as it registers them and all of these concepts are sort of constellated
um in a in a sort of map of the world that’s being created by your nervous system okay and so
the funny thing is though your mind or whatever it is can disappear between those concepts which
are being constellated okay and so eventually you’re backing away from those concepts and
you’re disappearing into that unmanifest zone that’s on the dais climbing the step up into the
throne and then now dying into the form of Osiris. And now when you’re sitting in the throne of
Osiris, there’s really nothing perceivable going on anymore, let’s say. Or there’s no active
creating of concepts going on anymore. If you’re sitting in that position, you might still see and
feel things but the mind is not making things out of them anymore those sensory impressions
are just washing over you now okay this is a non-dual state to be in okay the mind still
functions in that state but um ideally if you’re sitting in that throne there are no thoughts
going on just uh experience okay and remember that a thought is always a subject object scenario
okay but the mind has to create subjects and objects in order for a thought to exist
the senses and the brain and the mind can still work without subjects and objects being created
and then all you have is just the immediate world of everything all at once okay and this strange
as that sounds a very intense state of being where everything’s right up against you there’s
no separation between anything this is the dead state because this is this is the state of no
thingness you are no longer a thing you are no longer a body the universe is no longer out there
it’s all right here there’s no you in it because the barriers between everything have been erased
and this is what it’s like to sit in the throne of osiris this is you know meditation and in
meditation of course you become aware of your thoughts let’s say but what is a thought a thought
is a subject object relationship okay it’s got one concept related to another and that’s a thought
right and so um when you can see these thoughts or these concepts or the subject object relationships
just for when they formulate you can see them formulating you realize oh that’s just a thought
those are these are just concepts concepts are are manufactured by the nervous system
they don’t exist not really they exist as nervous impulses let’s say right as maps of the world but
the world as it actually is isn’t made of concepts. It has no boundaries. It has no boxes. It has no
bubble maps that define things. It’s just all intensely non-dual. All is one. This is the dead
state. Now, if you get up off the throne and you’re going to go do something, that has to involve a
thought because now you have to become a subject that’s going to do something to an object. This
requires you to become a thing so that you can do something to another thing and if you if you’re
going to move from that non-dual state into a state of thingness then you are now in a subject
mode and now you can go out and onto the temple floor and deal with various objects out there
okay this is actually a description of what happens in the incarnation process and what i’ve
just described is that it’s possible to be discarnate while the body is still alive okay
and what this seems to indicate is that you know after you literally die this state of discernment
can go on and that you basically disappear into this sort of non-dual world where there are no
subjects and objects but occasionally something tugs at you and says you really need to become
a subject doing something to an object over here okay and supposedly what happens to most of us is
we just get compulsively drawn into these subject-object relationships and just sucked into
a new life a new incarnation of some kind right of course this happens moment to moment but we
just don’t realize it you know that we’re constantly being drawn into these uh relationships
these subject-object relationships that actually don’t exist okay um but we’re seduced by them we
are pulled into them and um a high-powered adept is somebody who can simply say no if if if a
thought comes along and says you need to be you need to become a subject doing something to an
object over here okay uh you are hungry therefore and you need to become this sort of predator who
goes out and kills something and eats it oh okay i guess i’ll do that right and so most of us will
play along with that okay um the adept is supposedly somebody who can simply say oh that’s an interesting
scenario. It’s not real, but I can choose to play along with that and go along with it. The ability
to discern that is a kind of freedom that is beyond description. The ultimate relief of that
feeling is probably described as, wow, I don’t even have to survive anymore. I don’t have to do
anything. Nothing’s required of me. And that kind of freedom makes you radically different on one
level but still quite ordinary because you’re still going to go out and do things you’re still
going to probably go out and do you know do what other people do but every time you you’re not just
automatically driven to do it because you know that each time you become a person who does
something that that person is not real it’s a construct it’s a it’s a concept that’s created
by the nervous system most of us believe that we really are this thing that has to go out and eat
things and grab them and you know kill them grab them eat them or or um or push things away that
are bothering us we we believe that we really are this skin bag that needs that has these needs and
must do these things okay somebody in the god form of osiris supposedly realizes that that’s not real
that’s just that’s a construct it’s an illusion fabricated by the nervous system that they
disappeared back into the underworld and these subject-object relationships are seen for what
they are they’re just simply not real okay and that’s a dead state you’re no longer alive but
once you choose to play along with one of these scenarios suddenly you’re alive again and you’re
caught up in the act the act of being a person again okay so is it possible to arise as osiris
well not not really because when osiris arises in the world he takes on the form of his son horus
so yes and no when osiris gets up he becomes horus he becomes incarnate as his offspring let’s say
right his extension light in extension very important in the golden dawn the book of coming
forth by day light in extension which simply means the power to incarnate by choice but not
by compulsion necessarily the ability to do this to truly sit upon the throne of osiris requires
spiritual maturity and um and it becomes clear you know working with people on the patreon site
you can very quickly see who has enough maturity to do it and those who have probably have to spend
more time in the world in a life of hard knocks before they realize finally that no role is worth
buying into absolutely. So people who are spiritually mature have supposedly spent enough
time realizing what they are not. And it simply means that anything that is a concept, anything
that as a thing, that’s not it. So in other words, if you have to become something to do something,
that’s not it. That’s not the enlightenment. But the bias is that if I want to be enlightened,
I have to become this, and I have to become that, and I have to do this, and then I have to do that.
I have to become all these different things that do different things. Not really, no.
okay i realize though that in tantra we play different roles there are different planetary
deities there’s different ways of moving around that’s because um we we play with these different
perspectives to shake ourselves out of um their um our belief in those perspectives and our absolute
belief in those perspectives okay so anyway um people who have lived enough who have tried to
become a number of things and they realize that nothing they ever could become is it will ever
satisfy them once we begin to realize that then we are spiritually mature okay and and the path of
if you want to accelerate that if you want to go out into the world and learn quickly that nothing
you can become will ever satisfy you completely if you want to learn that lesson quickly the path
you take is called via negativa okay the via negativa and that is um the way of negation
so anytime you think you’ve found something that’s going to pay off and be it the automatic response
is nope that’s not it so anytime you think you’ve seized upon something that’s going to give you
what you want um then uh the immediate response is nope not that that’s what via negativa means like
not this not this not this not this not that not that not that okay and this is the equivalent of
osiris if you’re like backing into the throne all of the things that you see interacting out there
on the temple floor none of those things are the state of enlightenment in which osiris exists okay
so you have to die to those things okay it doesn’t mean you can’t see them it just simply means that
you are no longer them and you’re you’re no you’re no longer a subject that needs to do something to
an object okay and we accomplish that with the via negativa um if you want an example of literature
of the um via negativa there’s a classic um heretical christian text called uh the cloud
of unknowing it’s one of the most famous famous mystical texts in the path of the via negativa
it simply talks about god in terms of what he is not not this not that and he’s not this he’s not
this he’s not that he’s not this and so once you’ve let go of all these things that he could
be eventually there’s nothing left and then you’ve sort of backed into that throne and you have died
and now you are in a non-dual state okay um another example of this for spiritual maturity
is that people who have simply become so fed up there’s you become so fed up with with um trying
to achieve happiness and not and and nothing ever satisfies you completely or for for long you know
um being fed up so much that you realize that there’s nothing no thing that can ever please you
100 you’ve given up and of course giving up is like dying right and sinking into that eastern
station. And now you’re on the throne of Osiris. And it’s like, wow, I’m completely free. I don’t
have to do anything. And yet, I could get up off this throne and become something and commit to
that for a while. And then I can go back to the throne again and then disappear back here again.
Now, this is something that we can do while we are alive. Okay. And it’s even more profound than
that too because you can have both worlds at once even if you decide to become a subject who does
something to another object and now you’ve bought into this thing right you can still see through
it you know it’s not real even as you’re doing it okay this is really interesting too because it
makes you better at doing just about everything because you know you can see right through it
like you know this is not um you can see you can see other alternatives you know you’ve chosen this
saying, and you know, it’s not real. And you can see all the other alternatives out there that are
also not real, but also might be ways of doing things. Hard to describe this. I wasn’t expecting
this video to go this way. But okay, so I’m hoping it’s clear enough. So going into the underworld,
you could kind of describe that as like being in a waiting room. The only thing that’s different
about this waiting room is that you’re not waiting for anything. Okay, so it is kind of like waiting
because it’s a state of pure potentiality you’re ready to become something at any moment right
um so like in other words when osiris dies he goes into into a state of readiness to come back
i’m ready to come back at any moment right whenever there’s a good opportunity to do that
if like if my son horace is born whatever and uh so he he is in the state of waiting
but since this is an unmanifest state with no thoughts going on there are no subjects and no
objects it’s simply like a state of waiting but nothing to wait for and there’s a mystic by the
name of gene klein who described uh it’s like being enlightened is like waiting a kind of
waiting that’s free of what it’s waiting for so you could say that osiris has gone into some kind
of waiting room but this is a waiting room where there’s no stress there’s no there’s no you know
i have to get somewhere i’m trying to i’m waiting for something to happen there’s no thing that’s
going to happen it’s just a rate a state of eternal readiness eternal springiness it’s like um i don’t
know like a gentle pressure it’s like ready to come out you might think of it like um the station
of kether where there’s like a circle and there’s there’s something that’s going to manifest within
that circle it’s going to come out it’s going to just it’s just it’s not there yet it’s just
about to come out but it’s not there yet this is Osiris who’s unmanifest and if you are in that
state it’s not like you are in a trance or anything like that remember this is not an altered state of
consciousness it is a state that is free of all altered states of consciousness being caught up
in thoughts if you’re caught up in your thoughts all day long you’re you’re caught up in altered
states of consciousness all day long then okay the goal of the work is to be free of all of these
altered states it doesn’t mean they don’t happen it simply means that you can see through them and
you can opt to not to go with them when they want you to go with them let’s go do this your mind
throws a stick and like a obedient dog you run after it right well so the adept supposedly can
see the mind throwing the stick and can decide whether or not he will go after it and of course
he won’t necessarily look at the stick he’ll turn around and look at the mind it’s like what are
you doing and the mind goes oh shit he sees me whoever he is right so in other words all my
tricks aren’t going to work anymore like and although all these um all these habits aren’t
going to be able to run the show anymore because somehow the power of awareness has caught me in
the act of perpetuating suffering oh no okay and that’s why the power of awareness can wipe out
suffering instantly, which is the enlightened state, supposedly. Another way to look at
the ability to become Osiris is, are you a life form, or are you life itself? So you could say
that when Osiris gets up and becomes something, moves out onto the temple floor with all the other
forms out there, then he becomes a life form, okay? When he goes back to the throne, he disappears
into pure potentiality there is no form really there the you know we visualize a form there but
that’s symbolic of um the death of form the form has died okay and uh even here we have the symbol
of the ankh the symbol of life supposedly in uh ancient egypt and you could say that the space
on the dais in the neophyte temple where the high-level officers sit okay the space in the
dais where where osiris sits is inside that loop at the top of the cross there okay and if you look
at that um it kind of looks like a a womb or a vagina okay so um and osiris is inside that vagina
he’s in the underworld he has not come forth and the the shaft below that can represent two things
and for our purposes here it represents the ability to come forth by day that’s the path
out so osiris can come forth and then adopt some kind of form when he does that so naturally it’s
very symbolic because if that is a woman’s womb well babies come out of a woman’s womb so
and that is symbolic of some kind of spiritual entity taking on form and then coming forth into
the material world okay so so every time the hierophant gets up off of the dais and then
walks out on the temple floor he’s being born he’s he’s stepping out of a womb okay and in
some temple setups like in um philema maybe uh there’s a veil there and you you know part part
the veil to come out of it and you so this is actually a giant vagina pretty much where you
get born from and you can go back into to disappear back into the underworld again and of
course in um in in literal life you know you come out of your mother but then you go back into the
great mother of the earth you go back you get buried in a tomb something like that so the in
the golden dawn temple of neophytes that station where the hierophant sits where the god form of
Osiris is, is also the station of Tifareth, which is the center svera of the Tree of Life. I probably
should have put up a Kircher diagram of the Tree of Life. Those of you who are studying know what
I’m talking about. The center svera on the Tree of Life is called Tifareth, and that is in the
Golden Dawn Neophyte Temple. The station of the Hierophant corresponds to Tifareth. One of the
ways to look at Tepharoth because that’s the station of the sun and the sun issues forth many
rays. You could view the rays coming off of the sun. Each ray is an invitation to incarnate.
Okay, so in other words, the mind throws a stick and says, let’s go do this. Let’s become this for
a while. And there are lots of these things constantly coming out, inviting us to go do this
or go do that and there’s you can tell this is subject object relationship a ray goes out and
shines light on an object out there and i need to go do something now right and so somebody who’s
sitting on that throne of tefareth let’s say is constantly aware of all of these invitations to
incarnate and is able to say no to all of them can just remain in that state of perfect peace
okay um that person who’s sitting there also has the ability to say yes to one of them and then go
along with it for a while okay and this is very much like the in in the east you know they have
the bodhisattva um supposedly we have these people who are able to choose their next incarnation
they’re able to reincarnate at will this is not something they learn like some weird funerary
practice if this is something they learn while they’re alive they already know how to do this
their thoughts are constantly inviting them to do things and they’re saying no no no not doing that
and then eventually yeah i’ll do that one in other words something comes up and they go ahead and do
that they’re incarnating as this particular persona who needs to do this in this particular
way the task is done and then they disengage and they settle right back into being unmanifest
again even while the body is still alive okay so this trick of being able to reincarnate at will
is something they learned simply by meditating okay or by doing tantric exercises that pretty
much zero in on this special osiris position um on the like the center of the tree of life
okay and you can see that um meditation is simply one way of doing it you can also restructure the
psyche through ritual and through spiritual practices, so that this ability to disengage
from all thoughts happens naturally, without you trying to shut off your thoughts, which is kind of
silly, actually. Okay. So unfortunately, so many people think that in order to be, you know, to
achieve this pure state, you have to develop harsh practices that try to purify the mind of all
thoughts um that’s absurd actually uh we can do exercises that restructure the mind so you just
kind of accidentally fall into this osiris position of no thoughts okay and that’s those
that’s what we call you know tantra the the um the forbidden practices of which are essentially magic
doing ritual and things like that in order to achieve achieve enlightenment i would say
tantric practices and magical practices are are so forbidden because um mainly because they’re
so misunderstood okay as you can tell the things i’ve been talking about uh being able to use
things on the temple floor as reference points and then triangulate in on that station of osiris
this is the magical thing that we’re doing this is what we’re learning we’re not casting spells
to to get a new girlfriend or something like that okay all right so um however the ability to get a
girlfriend might naturally develop because if you have if you develop a stronger awareness of your
thought processes as they come up um you can decide which ones you’re going to go with and
which ones you’re not going to go with this gives you a lot of control control in air quotes um
okay uh not control in a control freakish type way okay it’s something that’s very hard to describe
okay because eventually our notions of free will get kind of turned inside out if you if you ask me
whether free will exists i’ll just kind of short circuit and laugh at you so what does enlightenment
mean it’s a beautiful word so it kind of means to be filled with light but that light is from
the boundless realm so you could see that realm behind osiris as the the where the light of the
the sun comes when the sun rises okay and then of course it illuminates everything going on in the
material world on the temple floor okay let’s say um so enlightenment means to be filled with light
you are enlightened but um i love how english um sort of becomes a victim of this word right even
though what uh because also to be light is to be like light as a feather and um the nice thing
about the word then is it also indicates a state of lightness. And so when we are able to disengage
from our thoughts, we become insubstantial. We realize that these heavy things that we think we
are, are not real. And the sensation is very much like you’re floating, like you’re everywhere you
go, you’re floating. If you’re free of thoughts, you know, pretty much or you can see thoughts for
they are they don’t weigh on you they don’t weigh on your mind um and you can laugh at yourself for
for being this uh for having this form let’s say right and realizing that this thing that your
nervous system is trying to get you to identify with it’s not real in other words it’s not really
what you are are you a life form no you are life itself okay so when we can disengage the way that
the hierophant does we disengage from the action on the temple floor and sit on the throne of osiris
we are no longer a life form we are simply life whatever that means okay and quite frankly we
really are this all the time we just don’t realize it so as you’re walking around doing things
throughout the day uh you have been beguiled into believing that you are a life form probably as i
very often am but uh if you have glimpses of enlightenment then you can see that you can
sometimes see that oh i’m not this thing i’m not this thing i’m pretending to be i’m simply life
itself doing stuff okay and some people say i’m pure awareness or something like that you know
but none of those things are accurate because remember the way of via negativa not this
not this i’m not that i’m not this i’m not that so if you say i’m a i am awareness well
awareness is just kind of getting in the way now it’s a concept that’s like you’re trying to
identify with right gone right none of these things are what you are and to let go of all of
them means to die and then sit on the throne of Osiris. Which is a throne of bliss? A throne of
eternal happiness? Not really, no, because the joy or the ecstasy comes about from living in both
worlds at the same time. And that means like sitting on the throne of Osiris, but also aware
that you have a form that’s going about and moving on out on the temple floor at the same time in
words if you occupy both at the same time that is pure joy it’s light coming forth from the
unmanifest in a direct unhypnotized way unbeguiled like aware of what it’s doing and enjoying what
it’s doing it’s hard hard to describe that okay if if you buy into being something and you really
think you are this life form out on the temple floor then you are subject to being jerked around
and threatened and whatever like then um then the suffering begins to happen and you’re able to say
oh poor me something just hit me oh poor me uh of course osiris sitting on the throne knows that
there’s nothing to hit there’s no i’m i’m not that okay and once you have that ability um it’s
interesting too because you can reinvent yourself rather easily so you not only can you come forth
as Osiris but you can come forth as all of the other as Horus I mean as other types of beings
when you can see that none of the roles that you adopt are really who you are it makes them much
easier to adopt they’re not intimidating there’s not much to them actually they’re quite simple
and they get various jobs done
and you can become them and then disengage with them, okay?
And the ability to do that liberally
is a sense of extraordinary freedom,
the ability to do that, okay?
So just to disappear and be unmanifest,
no, that’s not good enough,
being passive like that
and just meditating all day long, right?
No, no, no, no.
You want to be able to exhibit light and extension, basically come forth from the throne and become something for a while and do things and take part in the world and get your hands dirty and realize that none of the things you’re doing are necessarily real.
They’re not really what you are.
It’s pretend.
We do these things for a while to get something done, and then we disengage, and then we realize that this is not really what I am.
so it i guess the freedom comes about because nothing can stain you nothing can tarnish you
nothing can nothing can actually truly hurt you that’s quite a highly realized state and
the lightness of it so you you this the sensation is that you are very buoyant so even if you have
bought into being a particular life form that life form just kind of feels like it’s floating
on the surface of the unmanifest it’s always buoyed up by the erupting power of that eternal
flow the fountain of of um that’s gushing forth from unmanifestation into manifestation
yeah which brings me to an exercise i’m gonna i’m gonna see how quickly i can do this on the
patreon site i’m gonna put enlightenment practices practice number three and four i think up there
and um one of them is going to be it’s called the fountain of aeates um there’s a great book
called circe by madeline miller it’s a novel and there’s a character in that um book uh it’s a
greek god at aeates and he describes what it feels like to be a god at least for him he says um it
feels like a column of water that pours ceaselessly over itself and is clear down to its rocks so the
sense of being enlightened or being light or or buoyed up from the depths and not taking yourself
so seriously in this sort of buoyed up form that you find yourself in um that’s kind of what i’m
getting to here okay and there is an enlightenment practice that i call the fountain of iates
which utilizes this column of water imagery okay which i’ll be sharing on the patreon site
um probably tomorrow which is monday okay so um you might want to look out for that one
uh to to be in this fountain experience is very much like the middle pillar exercise
and um it might uh it’s one of those sort of tantric exercises that can help you experience
It’s what it’s like to not only sit on the throne of Osiris, let’s say, but also come forth from that throne and gush into this world in some kind of form or action, which in the golden dawn would be called light and extension.
And of course, light and extension is not that esoteric, really, because that’s what we all are.
If we are incarnate, we are light and extension.
The only issue then is how has it come about
that we don’t recognize it moment to moment, okay?
And you can see that we can do these various exercises
to help us recognize it again.
It’s really all that’s required, okay?
You don’t need to enter intense states of concentration
or adopt harsh aesthetic disciplines.
Some disciplines required, yeah,
because there’s a lot of faulty evolution, let’s say, to overcome.
There’s a lot of habits of the nervous system
that are fooling us into thinking that we’re something we’re not.
And these habits take some work to overcome.
But it doesn’t need to be difficult.
It just needs to be regular and it needs to be disciplined.
And that’s why we do the great work,
like the stuff that’s in the Kabbalah Magic Book.
All right, so stay tuned for those exercises.
it’ll be enlightenment practice number three i think and then number four i think will be
the fountain of ietes okay i hope that was clear all right so um well until next time
Source: Lyam Christopher