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Can a private, solo practice open a doorway to awakening? Lyam Christopher takes up a topic that is often whispered about in the Western mystery traditions. The claim here is not a crude shortcut but a philosophical one: the polarities we usually look for in another person, active and receptive, light and dark, are already living inside each individual. For tantric work, he suggests, no partner is required, only attention and intention.
He turns to creation myths to show how old this idea is. Atum, alone before anything else, stirs and brings the world forth from himself. Kabbalah offers its own version, with the infinite opening a space and pouring life into it. Shiva and Shakti, the bright and the dark, are not two lost souls needing a rescue but two faces of one wholeness. The endless search for a soulmate becomes a picture of the snake chasing its tail, running after completion that was never missing.
Then the teaching turns inward. The goal is not the physical act itself, but the dissolving of the false wall between thinking head and feeling body. Letting that wall fall can feel overwhelming, even like a small death, but on the far side there is calm and available energy. This is the same path of consciousness mapped in great detail in Kabbalah, Magic & the Great Work of Self Transformation. Even the famous images of the Buddha touching the earth take on a tender meaning: the universe, delighted, reaching out to touch itself, whole and at peace all along.
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Alright, let’s try this again. My computer conked out on me. It looks like there was a power glitch.
Alright, kids. This week we’re talking about magic and masturbation. A forbidden topic.
I’ve gotten a few inquiries about this. Some of them get blocked by the YouTube algorithm.
But they go into a special file, like held for review or something like that.
So I don’t know what it is about those messages that YouTube is blocking.
But hopefully it’s not the word masturbation
Because then I won’t be able to publish this video
I don’t know
Usually when people talk about drug use
That can sometimes get blocked
But I’ve never seen it block sexual references before
Except maybe this one
So maybe if it seems like porn
You know, YouTube will try to block it
I don’t know, so we’ll find out
Alright, let’s start with
Let’s start with the question
Can masturbation make you go blind?
No, of course not
um but um masturbation itself is a sort of blind in magic so yeah people say oh yeah you can use
masturbation to um stimulate sexual energy and then sort of use it to destroy an old reality
and create a new reality or or to you know use it to get what you want alistair crowley was famous
for you know turning to sex magic as a means of trying to manifest your heart’s desire
and by masturbating apparently or by having sex with someone obviously it’s more convenient for
for people to um to masturbate uh to raise sexual energy uh because if you’re trying to
raise sexual energy with somebody it’s like what are you doing that’s so weird
so here’s the blind this is a quote from uh lama thubten yeshe uh this is a man and he’s sort of
using a little trick here um it looks like he is you know speaking out for the empowerment of women
uh and so yeah it’s not it’s not the man who enters the woman but it’s the woman who enters
the man like the woman has the upper hand right uh no it’s not really what he’s saying but of
course he’s kind of playing around with that um the actual thing he’s referring to here has nothing
to do with the woman penetrating the man like with a strap on or anything like that all right
we’ll get to what he actually means by that all right so um so don’t worry guys you don’t need
to be penetrated by women all right unless you want to be well first let’s talk about um let’s
talk about semen retention because i get a number of questions about that uh maybe a couple a month
and uh yeah an old taoist practice of retaining semen um biologically scientifically there really
isn’t any evidence that i can see that supports the idea of retaining semen to stay young and
energetic okay um not really however anecdotally something’s going on okay and i think i know what
it is because i’ve heard a number a number of theories about it if you think the way the way
our instincts work first of all women tend to be attracted to men who are powerful and wealthy and
women are not so visually oriented a man doesn’t necessarily need to be super handsome that helps
but more so he needs to be powerful and wealthy you know taller than her bigger than her like i
just won’t date a man who’s shorter than me i can’t stand it you know that kind of stuff right
and of course um being attracted to a guy with a loud grumbling car that’s kind of an old thing
right the car being a symbol of his power and his status uh okay now for men men are more visually
oriented and pretty much are looking for a woman who has the traits that show that she won’t die
in childbirth and that she can also produce enough milk to to nurse the offspring which means
wide hips normally and large breasts large enough breasts anyway and um and other signs of health
like um full head of hair you know things like that right um now because of these sort of instincts
um men when they are young and unproved or unproven um they need to amass wealth in order
to attract women so they they generate they put forth a lot of effort to get successful
and have enough money to and and uh in order to basically go to the parents and say can i marry
your daughter and they just look at his finances and his connections and say okay i guess you’re
powerful enough to take care of her right uh so um now what happens is uh instinctively if a man
is addicted to pornography and masturbates a lot he’s kind of signaling his body to say that i’ve
already made it i don’t need to try i don’t need to make lots of money okay i’ve because pretty
much um this pornography is signaling his body saying that you’ve already you’re already
surrounded by several wives who are um and you are inseminating them on a regular basis so you’ve
already made it you don’t need to try right so that’s a really interesting theory and it seems
to be there’s there seems to be some truth to it uh another theory is that it simply doesn’t have
anything to do with uh semen retention okay um there’s not much energy in semen really there
well there’s there’s a lot of mitochondria and semen which do generate energy so when a man is
full up when he has when he has retained a lot of semen he hasn’t ejaculated in a while uh it seems
like there’s energy in the scrotum like there’s static electricity you can sort of feel that
tingling going on and it kind of wants to be let out a sort of antsy feeling um and um so yes
that could very well be the mitochondria in the semen who are basically creating a static electric
charge who knows however other cells in the body like nerve cells have a lot more mitochondria
than the semen do they can generate a lot more energy than semen because they have to generate
the activity of the nervous system which is like electrical more like that’s more electricity
really than a sperm needs to swim or navigate and to fight off other rival sperm okay so
and it doesn’t take a lot of energy to manufacture semen either. It takes some, obviously. Okay. The
other activities require a lot more energy, simply, you know, bodily movement and working
out at the gym and thinking takes quite a lot of energy. The brain for higher brain functions
consumes a ton of energy, actually much more than it takes to make sperm. So anyway, self-pleasuring
or masturbation is basically self-gratifying behavior. It’s entertainment. So it really has
more to do with dopamine. So when you engage in any kinds of activity that involve
incentive to do something and reward, incentive, action, reward, incentive, action, reward,
even if you’re watching a movie with the suspense that’s happening in the movie,
that’s that’s triggering the dopamine okay um video games are especially good at that they
trigger they trigger some kind of motivation and you work really hard to level up right and then
you reach the level it’s ah cool and then you get the dopamine rush right if you keep doing that a
lot uh then you’re you’re producing a lot of dopamine fine your body can do that but what
happens over time is the number of dopamine receptors go down because your body is saying,
oh, you’re making all this dopamine. I guess you don’t need as many dopamine receptors to stay
motivated. And the number of dopamine receptors declines, which means now you need more dopamine
in order to feel motivated because dopamine is a motivation hormone. So you can see what happens
if you’re super addicted to pornography and masturbation, then that could also be part of
what decreases the number of dopamine dopamine receptors and basically um hampers your motivation
okay so you got a double whammy there it’s like first of all if you’re already ejaculating a lot
it’s like well i guess i don’t need to generate a lot of wealth because i’ve already made it right
and the other thing is well and now i don’t feel like doing anything because all all the pleasure
all the pleasure seems to come to me so easily now so there’s not a lot of motivation you know
Okay, so that’s probably what’s really behind this idea of semen retention.
It’s really more a matter of being more disciplined and not participating in gratuitous behaviors very much.
So I’m sorry to say it, you know, those old conservative values about not seeking too much pleasure, not engaging in hedonism.
There seems to be some value there.
yeah and it really doesn’t have much to do with masturbation sorry so have fun masturbate so
if human beings are capable of masturbating especially if they can engage in masturbation
to practice magic or mystical techniques do they actually need to have a sex partner to do that
obviously not okay is there for a man is there anything special about a woman that’s going to
provide something that he needs in order to engage in sexual Tantra, mystical practices or magic in
general? No, no, there really isn’t. And same thing for a woman. Okay. So a woman who, who is going to
be doing mystical practices, um, that involve raising sexual energy. She does not need a
consort or a man to do that okay um masturbation is enough okay so uh one of the blinds is that
well women are sort of made of negative energy and men are made of positive energy and they need
each other in order to carry off some kind of alchemical orgasm right in order to make magic
happen simply not true because the negative and positive the male and the female whatever you want
to call it the active and the passive we already know those exist inside each one of us okay so
this feeling of being incomplete without the other present that’s an illusion okay it doesn’t mean
you don’t have sex but it means that that feeling of lack you’re getting doesn’t really require you
to go out and get that thing you’re lacking in order to feel complete i think we already knew
we already knew this didn’t we okay and yet kind of listen to the biology and say no no i need
a man says i need to have a woman or the woman says i need to have a man and then i’ll be okay
right no as we know once you find a mate you’re still not okay you can get pretty tired of them
pretty fast sometimes right and because they’re not providing what you thought you were going to
get from them and then it then of course you you’re left to your own devices again whether
you’re with or that whether they are still there or whether they’ve you know whether you’re divorced
now or whatever you you’re like okay well i didn’t find that through a partner what’s really going on
now i’ve fallen for the blind haven’t i so what’s really going on with sex magic or sexual tantra
what’s what’s behind the masks of the opposite sexes what are the real energies at work there
so as you can see this is um this is called consort practice so the man would sit in a
meditation posture and the woman would supposedly sit in his lap and they would meditate together
nice romantic thought right it’s almost like they don’t even care about each other it’s like i’m
just using you so i can raise sexual energy uh well and if you look at these images it’s almost
like the woman is sort of an afterthought or like a like an appendage or even like a i don’t know
sort of like a blow-up doll uh that’s just kind of used to um in order to facilitate the sexual
energy of the meditation okay and this is probably really what was happening um in these old practices
I have no doubt that men and women did get together and meditate like this
But as you can see, it’s probably much easier to simply imagine someone sitting in your lap
Or imagine yourself sitting in someone’s lap
And then begin to, in an auto-erotic way, stimulate yourself through imagination
And maybe through touching yourself and things like that
And then you can raise the same energy
Not only that, but you pretty much have a lot more control
and the active and passive and the light and the darkness the sulfur and the mercury the sun and
the moon the male and the female these energies are within you both of them you don’t need a
partner to experience these things which means that but what is sex anyway even if a partner
is there you’re basically using that partner to stimulate your genitals in other words it’s still
masturbation isn’t it all right so what’s really behind this then if you can sit there by yourself
and do sex magic and sexual tantra what’s the point why do it and why does it work without
even having a mate there to explore this we go into myths about the creation of the universe
we can go back to ancient Egypt where we have the god Atum before the universe existed there
was only a single divinity if you could even call it that okay before anything existed at all there
was simply Atum and Atum somehow got restless he wanted to create but of course he didn’t have
anything anyone to play with he’s all by himself so he didn’t have you know a partner to produce
offspring with so he begins to get restless and antsy horny so within himself right and fondles
himself somehow, and then ejaculates the universe into existence. Okay, some of the myths describe
him as spitting out the universe, like spitting out, and that’s probably the G-rated version
of the ejaculation of the universe into existence. Okay, so the first divinities that created the
world came forth from the seamen of Atum who pretty much stimulated himself and spewed them
forth this is not unique to ancient Egypt we don’t need to go into a lot of detail
let’s just go to Kabbalah in Kabbalah even we have the Ain Saf before the universe was created
there was nothing but God God begins somehow to become restless within himself to play with
himself fondle himself and sort of space opens up where he can do that and then he ejaculates into
it and creates the universe yeah and uh some of these kabbalistic texts they go into they get sort
of erotic and autoerotic in nature it’s they not they’re not too bashful about it like basically
saying that’s similar to a sort of masturbation type process so in the process of tsim tsim which
is the um kabbalistic myth of god creating the universe in order to create the universe god
first had to sort of back away and create a space wherein the universe could exist like so there’s
this is me over here and this is not me okay so this sort of illusory space opened up within him
where a universe could now appear and the space that opens up within him is sort of like a womb
it’s sort of like a feminine space and into this feminine space then he spews the divine essence or
spirit uh semen and then within the universe in that womb things begin to grow like pretty much
it’s almost like he is you know fertilizing the womb and then the womb produces offspring within
itself and that’s the universe that we find ourselves in okay and but something went wrong
with that plan okay so maybe he got a little too excited and um so um he was trying to create
a perfect universe where everything was under control but somehow things got out of hand and
there was an explosion sort of like an like a orgasmic explosion and um as he’s pouring forth
light into darkness this explosion pretty much causes this um fragments of light and darkness
to just scatter out throughout the universe and and get all messed up and exploded and tangled
up within each other and there’s this big debris field now of light and darkness um sort of tangled
up inside material forms and things like that okay and um it’s a pretty cool idea because
um so the universe exists as a sort of tangled up playground or um sort of messy playground of
good and good and evil forces who are sort of lost and traumatized and what what just happened
and so all these different fragments and perspectives of good and evil or you know
light and darkness or things like that are now wandering around the crazy trying to figure out
what happened and unite with each other and get back to where they came from and so that’s kind
of the idea behind having a soul mate so in other words you um the the male principle is seen as
sort of a creature of light um which positive and the feminine is sort of a creature of darkness
this is um from the middle east so we have this sort of dark vision of of what um what women are
okay but that doesn’t mean that women are evil it just means that they’re one one power is active
the other is passive but there is some problems with that okay so just say you know the night
time is feminine and the daytime is masculine there are obviously some problems tangled up
with that association okay but um but as men and women encounter each other it’s like um they
recognize um the sort of attraction okay so um in in um in the vedantic tradition from india uh the
the bits of light and darkness that got scattered and that fell into separate fragments in the
universe. The light was Shiva and the darkness was Shakti, okay? The positive energy was Shiva
and the negative energy was Shakti. I’m oversimplifying it, okay? But basically the
space outside the universe was Shiva and everything inside the universe was Shakti.
and of course Shiva pouring his energy into Shakti caused some trouble okay and all these different
manifestations of Shiva and Shakti now appear all over the place there was an explosion and
you got bits of Shiva and Shakti all over the place big mess right and now we are all sort of
wandering around this debris field of the universe and we are manifestations of Shiva and Shakti
and so we occasionally recognize each other so it’s kind of romantic you know the man is a sort
incarnation of Shiva and sees his long lost Shakti in one particular woman and they oh we need to
unite and then if we can unite then we will experience the universe as it was before it was
created basically okay there’s a problem with that we’re going to get to that too simply uniting
Shiva and Shakti in the world is not what it takes in order to establish wholeness again okay so if
you try to if you see missing pieces of yourself out there and then you get close to them and rub
up against them that’s not what it takes to experience your unity with them okay and I think
we know this to be true don’t we so we think oh yes I see my long lost soul mate you complete me
so if i rub up against you sort of masturbate up against you right then we will be united and i
will experience uh complete and utter union again and i’ll be happy forever and this whole debris
field of the universe that makes me unhappy will disappear and i’ll just be back in the bosom of
god again right well we know that doesn’t work so eventually we wake up married and we’re like oh it
didn’t work i’m still i’m still me who feels incomplete and this person next to me doesn’t
look like i complete her either and she’s disappointed in me because i was supposed to
complete her and i’m disappointed in her because she was supposed to complete me i think we got it
wrong what do we what do we really need to do in order to get back to that perfect unity of
enlightenment again what really needs to happen hmm and that’s where we get to what’s really
going on with sexual tantra this is jack and rose from the movie titanic okay if you watch that
movie you can basically see shiva and shakti finding each other and when they’re together
they’re very they’re very powerful when they’re together right and they’re very naughty too because
everybody’s trying to keep them from getting back together again all these dark forces are
conspiring to keep them from getting back together again it’s pretty much you know the drama of
shiva and shakti finding each other and then secretly trying to uh unite so that they can
be blissed out forever and in kabbalah when god creates the universe so um he opens up that space
within him within himself a sort of room-like space and then he pushes into it this is kether
appearing in that space right this is shiva entering shakti it’s a phallic power entering
entering her okay and uh and then of course he ejaculates the tree of life into existence
and uh but something goes wrong and there’s an explosion i guess the sex got out of hand
and uh the universe kind of becomes a big mess okay um but the plan was to create the sort of
perfect image of god inside that space so god could behold his own reflection this sort of
looks like a face okay the pointy little beard on the bottom but that’s not what happened things got
things exploded got messy and now we’re in this scattered universe with all these reflections of
Shiva and Shakti all around us Shiva and Shakti the male force and the female force okay so these
are all analogies of course and in alchemy the Shiva and Shakti principles are represented by
the sun and the moon so in alchemy oh yes we bring the sun and the moon together and somehow we get
some kind of magic and we produce the philosopher’s stone and everything’s wonderful it’s not that
simple uh sulfur and mercury in alchemy okay light and darkness okay heaven and earth even good and
evil this does not mean that women are evil okay if you think about the evil there um it’s more like
the warrior of light goes into the dark cave and slays the evil dragon to rescue the female force
from her entanglement or her imprisonment in a dire situation okay and then of course they
they run off together and i suppose they’re going to be happy forever because they can unite and
then experience their ultimate bliss of unity with god again right well they live happily ever after
right um so that evil is not necessarily the feminine principle itself okay however part of
that myth is that um this can get tricky too but um the the male force comes in as a sort of mentor
and um a lot of women carry a lot of fear of sex and rightly so because of the way that um
sex has been carried out in the past not only does sex consist of a lot of tenderness and
affection but it also consists of violence and possession and dominance and now i’ve got you and
i won’t let you go that sort of thing right so um sometimes the the male influence can be very
positive for the female as well and so um teaching how her how to experience pleasure um trusting him
things like that and trusting herself teaching teaching how her how to um pleasure herself take
charge so um there can be a really positive male influence there as well there’s two male
influences the the evil dragon who keeps the virgin in the cave in the cave and won’t let her
go and then the um the true uh the true uh divine force comes in shiva himself comes in and says i’m
the real deal that guy’s that guy’s the imposter and we just so we destroy him or or subjugate
him and now we’d run off together and i’m the one who’s really going to help you
experience freedom freedom and together we’re going to go back to heaven again
all right so see there’s a big error of course because if we if we regard the sexual partner
as someone who completes us then what are we going to do we’re going to jump into a blender
together and set it on puree and hit the button and we all get sort of chopped to bits and we’re
all blended together and now we’re all together we’re blended together and now this is unity
no okay so simply finding your soulmate and then rubbing up against them is not going to give you
the unity that you seek and we know this okay and so i think it’s really interesting too because we
have that sort of depicted in the devil card of the tarot um the devil really all that really
represents is a literal interpretation of reality on the face of it in the words it’s the if you
look at reality only in terms of externals and take that to be reality then you are lost and
you’re pretty much ignorant and evil and that’s what’s happening here so these these the two the
man and the woman there are chained to the altar and they are stuck in a world of darkness and
karma because they keep believing that well if we interpenetrate each other enough or something
like that we’ll eventually experience unity we just need to keep trying right uh and it’s just
but it ain’t working it just doesn’t doesn’t seem to work and so but the devil pretty much keeps
saying no no just keep trying it’ll eventually get there haha right and what do they really need
to do okay that doesn’t mean that sex is evil okay and so um i think it’s really cool that in
robert place’s alchemical tarot he presents the devil card as the hermaphrodite in other words
this sort of monstrous um form of man and woman combined in one it’s like is this what you’re
trying to do that’s not going to work so presenting that as the ideal it’s like oh if we get together
and join into one body then we’ll be happy right no that’s not going to do it um having children
isn’t going to do it necessarily either yeah um but it doesn’t mean you shouldn’t have sex and it
doesn’t mean you shouldn’t have children it simply means that you need to see what’s happening
underneath that and beyond all that and so we come to the symbol of the Ouroboros this is a symbol
of the universe it’s also the symbol of the man chasing after the woman or the woman chasing after
the man okay and so when people say oh you’re like the dog who’s chasing his own tail okay so if you
think about it a man who’s in pursuit of a sexual partner he’s trying to find a woman to hook up
with right from a non-dual perspective that’s simply the universe chasing after itself okay
so notice how the snake is simply chasing after its own tail okay if we are all part of the same
thing that we don’t necessarily need each other not and at least not in the way that we think
so running up to my soulmate and touching them and rubbing up against them is not going to make
me feel complete okay but running up to my soulmate rubbing up against them is going to show
me something that oh this isn’t working but it is showing me something isn’t it it’s showing me
not to rely on that and so the act of reaching for something that i want okay somehow within that very
act is the essence of the unity between me and what i want all right so uh so think of the snake
like this um this particular snake is there another one yeah it’s another one um this is
from Cleopatra the alchemist this is not Cleopatra of ancient Egypt it’s she came later I think um
this is a later Cleopatra who was a female alchemist uh still pretty ancient um from her
text uh the Ouroboros and the the the Ouroboros is sort of confused okay the Ouroboros somehow
now feels cut off from itself, kind of divided it, divided in half, divided against itself.
It has sort of evolved into a condition where it now identifies itself with its head and it’s not,
and it sees the rest of its body as something other than itself. Okay. And so in that condition,
it will look down at its body and say, what’s that? Oh my God, that’s my long lost self. I don’t
seem but i can’t seem to feel my connection to that down anymore i feel i’m all up in my head
what’s what’s my body doing down there oh i need to get back to that so in other words me and my
body need to be one again so what the way i’m going to fix that is i’m going to chase after my
body go down and grab it and get it and try to somehow stuff it into my head again right this
is what’s happening here okay and so in order to feel whole again it starts to eat itself it’s kind
of what we’re doing when we chase after things that we think are going to make us complete
so as stupid as it is for the snake to try and eat itself to feel whole that is emblematic of what we
do when we chase after things to make ourselves feel whole whether it’s consumerism or trying to
find a mate who’s going to complete us okay chasing some tail right that is if we think
that’s going to make us complete that we’re basically this image right here is showing us
how silly that is okay and what becomes obvious then of course is that we already are complete
so that dividing line between the darkness and the light there in this serpent the dividing line
between those two things does not exist. But somehow, we’ve created an energetic structure
within ourselves that is dualistic. And a lot of energy goes into creating that dualism, okay?
Now, this has happened in our bodies, okay? As we evolved, we evolved a nervous system that sort of
moved upward, okay? So the original brain was in the gut. There’s still a brain down there. It’s
it’s the enteric brain it’s our root system right then the cardiac brain developed and then the
cephalic brain developed okay so essentially you know an organism that was a single cell that could
still sort of absorb food it developed a nervous system so that it could hunt after food and then
sort of bite it eat it ingest it and spew out the spew out the waste matter right and in order to do
that it got smarter and smarter but in the process of doing that it also began to identify with its
smart brain this thing that evolved up here mainly just to find food and outwit predators
it’s mainly what the brain evolved to do at least until humans came along because now it’s
doing all kinds of cool stuff right so um so we sort of evolved into this position but then of
course somehow we were trapped here now and i will even say my body it’s like this is my mind up here
my body is down here there’s a division between those two okay um and then so one of the things
about being unenlightened is that you feel divided against yourself this is a very real thing okay so
um and when you do mystical practices that boundary line you see there between the bottom
half of the body and the upper half of the body it can dissolve okay so it’s almost as though a lot
of energy goes into creating this sort of persona up here and then of course keeping everything else
down below in check okay a lot of energy goes into creating that dichotomy and when that dichotomy
dissolves it’s somewhat orgasmic okay or very funny okay sort of like a big joke sort of like
in other words this drama is being built up and it’s everything’s very serious and very divided
and sort of there’s there’s um fighting going on and there’s chasing after my tail and going on
um and we’re all taking that very seriously until we can see how silly it is what we’re doing then
we just laugh and all that energy structure all that drama um dissolves in sort of orgasmic like
bliss there’s your enlightenment right so the weird thing is that when you have uh when
enlightenment strikes it can be very frightening because it can feel like an assault of energy from
below all that energy that you haven’t checked down there that you’re keeping locked away in
hell or in the basement or something like that right it exists to serve me and I must keep it
under control this body thing I have right and then suddenly when the false dichotomy you’ve
created between yourself and your body, when that falls apart, it feels as though energy is rising
up to destroy you. And in a sense, it does destroy you. It annihilates the ego. And it’s actually
experienced as static electric energy, kundalini. Usually these attacks, if you maintain a
discipline, a very intense spiritual discipline, these letting go attacks, they will happen
probably early in the morning between waking and sleep okay so they won’t necessarily happen while
you’re engaged in sexual tantra or things like that but of course when you’re engaged in sexual
tantra you’re raising that energy guess what you’re raising the energy sort of up the spine
right okay well it means that energy that’s that’s being kept in check down here is now rising up
saying let’s let’s let’s dissolve this false dichotomy and and return to unity and bliss
okay and eventually it’ll be like sort of orgasmic right but at first it feels like uh you’re gonna
die it’s a death experience okay so this is like the sacrifice of the ego and when the ego dissolves
um it can be very frightening and the nice thing about after it’s dissolved there’s it’s like an
eternal afterglow okay that’s so and there’s so much energy available now because we’re not
maintaining the separation between the light and the dark and the upper and the lower there’s no
more energy really exerted to create this sort of false dichotomy of control like the gods of
olympus keeping the energy of the titans in check down in tartarus right that’s not necessary anymore
okay um so one of the cool things about tantra is that the um the the phallus can be seen as
entire body in other words the penis can be seen as the entire body okay so if you identify as male
the entire body can be sort of this penis okay and so that’s why in um some of the tantric
visualizations you have the energy going up the spine and then creating a fountain at the top of
the head and then it comes down around around the body guess what that’s a big ejaculation
surprise surprise okay and that’s so um but for men that’s that’s a pretty cool thing because
the same kind of experience they have when they’re ejaculating can be experienced through the body
okay so it’s this unity of the lower and the upper okay but they don’t see which they’re not really
uniting so in other words in order for the light and the darkness to unite they don’t unite they
simply dissolve the separation that’s between them they always were united there’s no need
to run out and get the other one and chase after the other one they already are part of the same
thing and when that is experienced it’s a it’s a big relief it’s like an orgasm right in other
words oh i never really had to go out and chase after my soulmate oh what a relief i never was
incomplete everything i’ve needed has been here all along how wonderful and it’s like it’s like
this is like the eternal the eternal afterglow now so once the ego has died and that separation
is gone there’s no need for franticness anymore or chasing after things that won’t you know can’t
give you um what you need you know um and of course you don’t need that anymore because you’re
like oh i already am complete okay so um i’m in i’m in a male body but does that mean i need a
woman no am i still attracted to women sure why not or if you’re if you’re gay am i still attracted
to you know whoever then uh fine but i don’t need that person in my life it doesn’t mean you don’t
have a partner though but but it’s very nice then because you don’t put any pressure on that person
to be something that they can never possibly be for you ever and then it’s just fun and funny
actually because occasionally you catch yourself making that person your everything it’s like oh
there goes the biology again trying to like convince me that i don’t have enough yeah
it’s the nature of addiction and so when the ego collapses so you could see this like tower as a
snake pretty much it’s instead of being looped around he kind of straightens out and then
realizes that oh my god i already am whole and then the whole um fake structure inside of himself
that he was using to separate the upper from the lower uh gets destroyed by sexual energy
okay or static electricity or kundalini whatever you want to call that right
as simply a burst of energy as the separate compartments of the body
cease to become separate anymore okay of course the more separate these sort of energy compartments
in your in your psyche become the more sick you become okay that’s why it explains why some people
can get very sick about when they’re very uptight you know about controlling things and so people
say the tower card is such an evil card it’s not evil it’s a big orgasm it’s a collapse of the ego
and lo and behold after the the card that appears after this in the tarot sequence is the star
which is that eternal afterglow more or less there are things to do after that okay but of course
then you that’s when you realize that oh i never really needed to be whole i already am and i shall
be now forevermore as i always have been anyway all right so i really love this because if anybody
who has any really intense experience with mystical practices they see the the buddha
touching the earth okay this is a very famous gesture he had when he when he reached enlightenment
or when enlightenment was almost upon him he’s like what’s going on what is this this is so
ordinary and yet so extraordinary and so somehow he breaks his discipline a little bit and he moves
out of his meditation posture and he reaches out his hand places upon the earth okay it’s like
this is there’s me here and the earth there and yet as i reach for it i know that it’s not separate
from me and then that dichotomy between self and other dissolves and it’s like orgasmic bliss
i and the earth we we are one and yet i’m looking at my hands now and it’s as if we are two
separate beings still how magical that is and in one sense this is the sexual act itself
so if you are enlightened it doesn’t mean you don’t reach down to the earth and touch it because
you’re fascinated you still do that which means you will still have sex with your partner you
reach out and touch her or him and he might even see that as that now he’s fondling the earth
it’s how magical it’s almost sexual in nature to do that to caress the the dirt right underneath
you and say this is fantastic this is the universe touching itself how blissful and now you will
never see this particular statue the same way again will you because now he’s sort of i don’t
know masturbating the earth oh well and so in the uh in the hermetic tradition like in the kabbalah
magic book um you are invited to see your magical circle um your ritual space as on top of a
truncated pyramid okay so remember that when the universe first appears um the opposites begin to
manifest and the primeval mound of creation is one of the first things that appears okay and it has
a light side and a dark side okay it has a yin and a yang that has a dark side of the hill and a
light side of the hill right and so um in order for anything to appear there has to be a contrast
right? So we have a dark side of the mound and a light side of the mound, okay? And the four-sided
pyramid is more elaborate. It has its four elements, and they’re two active elements and
two passive elements, okay? Notice how the four elements, in order to experience unity, the four
elements do not need to be ground up and mixed together, okay? Each facet of the pyramid on the
four sides here represents one of the elements. And in order to experience the unity behind those
elements, you would not grind up the facets of the pyramid and mix them together. That would be
stupid. Okay, that would be the error that the Ouroboros is making and trying to eat himself.
Okay, all you need to do is realize that these four facets or these active and passive forces
are part of the same thing. And they always have been, they always will be, they only appear to be
separate. And if you’re living in both worlds at the same time, the absolute world of truth and
the relative world of truth, active and passive elements, right, then that is bliss. That is sort
of the true synergy of magical energy that’s behind all this sexual drama. The true energy
is really the interplay between the absolute truth of unity and the apparent division of
separate things and the sort of play back and forth between these two realities is like an
eternal sort of sexual foreplay thing going on okay so it’s like the buddha fondling the earth
a little bit like touching the earth and stirring the sand there and going how how magical okay and
Now, in the Egyptian myth, when the primeval mound comes up,
the spirit of the divine descends upon it as a bird.
And so this is the magician now.
The magician represents the ability of the divine spirit to come down and touch and play.
Okay, bird.
We have now appeared in the universe as an avatar, let’s say,
and now we proceed to touch things and play with them.
and as we touch things and play with them this is simply the universe fondling itself
pleasuring itself in all kinds of dramatic ways okay so the same way that you have terrible things
happen in a drama and pleasurable things happen in a drama these things are analogous to the
positive and negative aspects of foreplay it’s like oh it’s so maddening why doesn’t she reveal
herself entirely yet oh well yeah don’t reveal yourself too soon i like this this is suspenseful
right so there’s um there’s even a little bit of maybe um aggressiveness going on or things
that you know these various um chronic forces playing themselves out in the sexual act all
these things are analogous to the universe itself working out its own struggles or not struggles
actually it’s actually play time because so when you know when children play they only pretend to
have dramatic battles and dramatic struggles and things like that right children know something we
don’t at least sort of and on top of this hill we get more complicated all right so i just want to
picture maybe on top of this um truncated pyramid we have a cross okay so the perspective that sees
the facets of the pyramid as separate that persona gets sacrificed it dies and in order to achieve
that though it does have to engage in the illusory attempt in other words the two forces still have
to sort of rub up against each other and explore each other to realize that the rubbing up against
each other and exploring each other will not actually accomplish that unity okay but however
in the process of discovering that they realize oh the unity is inside both of us isn’t it it’s
almost like then they close their eyes and say aha so in my very active reaching for you i find
i find you not out there but in me anyway yeah it’s getting kind of deep here isn’t it
right so um just as food for further thought you could see the the pyramid the truncated pyramid as
um the alchemical alchemical principle of salt let’s say and then the the serpent on the cross
here could be mercury and the cross itself could be sulfur okay but that’s that’s a discussion for
another time all right so you can see that um magical energy sexual tantra all these energies
sort of involve masturbatory undulating motions of pretty much us caressing things or god caressing
himself fondling himself pleasuring himself in order to sort of lose himself within the illusion
of separateness and then rediscover that he has always been a whole sort of thing okay and this
is why I think there’s an old French word for the orgasm it’s called the little death so the orgasm
we experience in sex is similar to ego death okay but they call it the little death because
that somehow instinctively they knew or they know that it’s not the real sacrifice okay so the real
orgasm is the um the letting go of your separateness from the from the universe or from the divine
okay so that dichotomy dissolves and that’s a big that’s the true orgasm okay and then of course
afterwards the eternal afterglow you see um so the orgasm is not necessarily sexual in nature
as this statue captures this is the exodus of saint teresa by bernini and you can see that
it’s very sexual in nature isn’t it but of course that angel that phallic power that the angel
wields isn’t really a penis okay but it can be experienced that way and so you can basically
even take on a male lover a woman can take on a male lover and experience that you know
the penetration as the energy of shakti rising up through the body okay and this is why it said that
so when a man practices tantra it’s not he who enters the woman it’s the woman who enters him
because that shakti energy down below remember the shiva is up here shakti is down below the
shakti energy rises up okay so that female energy female energy rises up annihilates the ego and
of course unites with shiva up here right and then of course there’s no more ego there’s simply
the persona afterwards okay there’s a lot more energy available then because there’s not a lot
of energy exerted to create division all around you and strife and struggle and control that’s
gone okay and that’s like the eternal afterglow then all right so i’m not sure what the reception
of this video is going to be like i’m not even sure i’m able to post it because of the title
So let’s see what happens.
Until next time.
Source: Lyam Christopher